The first thing you notice is the silence. An unnerving, horrible quiet without
the sound of voices, car engines, children playing, or televisions. Even the
birds are wise enough to have gone elsewhere. And yet we are in a small city in
the middle of the day.
We passed the last mujaheedin patrol two blocks ago, and they waved us through
when our escort told them what we were there for. To evacuate wounded, and to
collect the dead.
We drop out of the truck and start walking, our passports held high in our
otherwise empty hands. We leave our Iraqi driver and guide and enter the
crushing quiet of the Kill Zone, the no man's land between the rebels and the
American forces, somewhere inside the town of Fallujah.
The team is made up of myself, a British woman, and an Iraqi woman. On the way
in, I grab the Brit's hand and squeeze it. "For luck," I say, and I think I will remember the wink she gives me for the rest of my life.
No one, and I mean no one, is on the empty streets. We advance cautiously for about fifty yards, and then someone opens the door of a house, gesturing frantically around a corner with wild eyes. We can see what he is pointing at: a man lies in the street, covered in blood, a Kalashnikov still slung around his body. To retrieve him, however, will mean walking into American sniper fire.
If we carefully look through cracks in the brick wall that leads to the street, we can see them. Three soldiers in shooting positions, aiming straight down the way toward the victim. The situation is further complicated by a car that stands abandoned behind the prone man, all four doors hanging open as if the occupants have suddenly fled. Around it are scattered several RPG's and rockets. So if we attempt to do anything, the Americans will assume we are enemy fighters.
The Brit tries first. "HELLO!", she yells. "Can you hear me?"
No response.
I give it a try. "We are a medical emergency team! We want to retrieve this man in the street!"
Maybe it's the American accent. "Go ahead!" yells someone.
"Okay! We're coming out! Don't shoot!", I reply.
We leave the safety of the wall and enter the street. The three Americans look at us like we're insane. We go to the victim and immediately see he is gone: rigor mortis has even set in. We pick him up and start to carry him through the dead streets back toward the waiting truck. After we have gone about a block, one of the Americans yells from behind us, "Hey!"
We stop.
"Drop your weapons!"
I want to laugh. But it's not funny. Or maybe it is. "We don't have any weapons!"
He nods. "Oh. Okay!"
We resume hauling the corpse to the truck.
Entering Fallujah was difficult, but not impossible. We came in along the back
roads, following the scintillating Furat river (called the Euphrates by the
colonizers), past beautiful date groves, villages of clay houses, and herds of
goats. The air is marvelously dry, clean, and bright, the polar opposite of
Baghdad's choking, fume-ridden skies. It is a fantastic and timeless
landscape.
We are a group of six internationals bringing medical supplies to the town in a
chartered bus. Along the way, we pass a stream of vehicles headed the opposite
direction, evacuating women and children. On our own path we are joined by
minivans and pickups carrying medical and other supplies into the besieged
city. People stand by the roadside, offering water and food to anyone helping
their city. At one point, a group of young boys literally throws bread and
rolls into our bus, hitting us in the heads. The murderous operation against
Fallujah has indeed united Iraqis in solidarity.
As we get closer, every crossroads is guarded by groups of masked mujahadeen
wielding rifles. They wave us on and shout "Bravo!" in Arabic. The people's
spirit is strong here, and they intend to fight to the death against the
Americans.
This venture has been arranged by a friend of ours, an Iraqi activist and
professional bodyguard who has the necessary contacts to ensure our safety. He
is tall, given to relentless chainsmoking, with a moustache, tiny glasses, and
a paunch. He is also, incidentally, barking mad. But in some situations, it's
only the craziest people that you can trust.
When we first arrive in Fallujah, we go immediately to a hospital, which is
really a converted clinic, and deliver the medical supplies. We haven't been
there ten minutes when casualties start arriving.
A car screeches around the corner and slams to a stop in front of the hospital.
Volunteers scramble for stretchers while young mujahadeen, faces covered by
khaffiyas, scan the horizon. A family: a mother and two children, are removed
from the vehicle. They have all been shot, and are screaming in pain. We help
bring them inside the already crowded building.
We are also shown an ambulance that the Iraqis claim was shot up by the
Americans. It has bullet holes in the front windows, sides, and top. They say
the Americans do not respect international law, and openly attack ambulances.
Our Iraqi host soon wades through the crowd to find us. "I need volunteers!", he
shouts, his preferred method of communication, "Now!"
"To do what, exactly?", someone enquires.
"Retrieve wounded persons!"
My hand goes up, and the next thing I know, myself, the Brit, and the Iraqi
woman are standing in the back of a truck, with a grimly smiling Fallujah man
next to us who waves a Red Crescent flag and sings "Allah akbar, God is great",
as we roll towards the Kill Zone. A fighter holding an RPG-7 waves at us as we
pass him.
We return successfully to the hospital with the dead body, to find that our
Iraqi activist friend has driven an ambulance through American sniper positions
to move wounded people. He returns shortly, his mission accomplished, and the
shooting victims are carried into the building.
By now night has fallen. Nevertheless, on the next ambulance run, our team of
three volunteers to help. As we mount the van, I squeeze the Brit's hand and
she winks at me. Then away we go. Iraqi guide drives murderously fast, and as
we wheel around one corner, he yells, "Snipers!" and we all hit the floor of
the van.
But there are no shots fired, and we arrive at another clinic in a different
part of town to move wounded patients to the main hospital. We run with rolling
gurneys through the dark, there being no electricity in Fallujah at the moment,
and load the patients to the ambulance, for another harrowing ride back.
As soon as we arrive the hospital staff tell us that there is a pregnant woman
in premature labor that needs to come to the hospital. So we are off again, to
another part of town. This time there is no warning from the driver. Only a
rifle crack as American snipers open fire on our ambulance.
Riding in the back, I can see the flash of the gun as bullets pierce the walls
of the vehicle above our heads. Thank God I am on the floor. Another shooter
blows out our headlights, and I hear the Brit, who is in the front seat, scream
as pieces of engine spray into the cabin. Then they take out our front tires.
It is madness, we are in a clearly marked ambulance, with a flashing, noisy
siren, and they are shooting at us. Another bullet rips into the engine as the
driver throws the vehicle into reverse. We hit a curb doing about ninety miles
an hour, which takes out the rear tires. We screech back to the hospital on
rims alone.
That's the last trip for that night, as the ambulance is, for the moment, beyond
repair. We watch more casualties of the attacks arrive in private cars,
including a severely burned man who was hit by cluster bombs, breathlessly
praying as he is carried inside.
It is now late, and since there is not much we can do at the clinic, we retire
to our quarters for the night. We are led along dark streets, keeping close to
the walls, while red and orange military flares shoot overhead and rocketfire
is heard in the distance. We are put up in a family's house, where we sit down
to a much needed dinner in Fallujah.
The next morning we begin to load our bus, the same one we arrived in, with
wounded people to take to Baghdad hospitals. While this is transpiring, the
Iraqi woman whom we went out with the day before runs up to me. "The same
mission as before, the same place they want us to go," she says. "Do you want
to do it?"
We jump on board a truck, carrying a white Red Crescent flag. Our favorite
mujahadeen, a boy of eleven years who is already a seasoned fighter, shouts
that nothing will happen to us, that they will protect us and that god is on
our side. We roll back towards the Kill Zone. I squeeze the Brit's hand. She
winks at me.
Where before there were a few Marines, now there are scores. A whole line of
houses are occupied, and soldiers are visible on every roof, scanning the
horizon with field glasses. We leave the truck and start walking, repeating the
same lines: "We are an international emergency medical team! Please do not
shoot us!"
Three Marines run down the front stairs of a house and approach us very
cautiously. They take up positions on the street and nervously eye us. Their
team leader, sweaty and covered with dust, looks me over incredulously, an
American in an orange baseball cap and jeans. "What in the fuck are you doing
here?", he asks. I could well ask the same of him, but I don't.
"We're here to evacuate wounded people," the Brit replies.
"There aren't any around here," he says. We tell him we have to look anyway, and
he says okay and returns to the house that he and his men are operating out of.
We find a middle aged unarmed man nearby lying in the street, shot in the neck
and dead. As we begin to remove his body, his family pours out of a nearby
house, all of them hysterical with grief and fear. They want to know why
someone didn't come earlier, why he had to die, and if they themselves can
safely leave. It is a very difficult situation, and the Iraqi woman with us
does an excellent job of keeping everyone calm. Myself and the Brit return to
the Marines, to negotiate the evacuation of the family, who are one half-block
away from the soldiers.
The Marines also ask us a favor: they have a family in a house that they are
occupying, and they cannot give them food or water. Can we evacuate them as
well? We agree, and our Iraqi comrade goes inside with the soldiers to talk to
the second family.
The Brit and I wait for her on the curb, the only two people on the otherwise
empty streets. The day is hot and dry, and it seems bizarre to be just sitting
there in the dust in the middle of a war. But we feel we are doing the right
thing at the moment.
As the family in the house emerges, gunfire starts up very nearby, and the
Marines tell us we are going to have to get this thing done fast We group the
two families together, then load them all onto the truck that we came in on, as
well as a new, functioning ambulance that has just arrived. We also put the
slain father and the bodies of two dead fighters in the back of the ambulance,
where due to space, we are forced to ride. The stench of death is almost
overpowering and a cloud of flies accompanies us back to the hospital.
By then it is time to go. The bus is loaded with injured persons, including the
burn victim, and we say our goodbyes to the hospital staff. Word is sent out to
the mujahadeen guarding the roads to let us through safely, and we begin the
journey back to Baghdad.
There is only one hitch on the return trip, when we take a wrong turn and run
into a bunch of fighters who have not heard about us. It seems that they are
not centrally organized, working in small groups, and these folks don't know
who we are. They literally come out of the woodwork brandishing Kalashnikovs
and pistols, pointing them at the bus and demanding to know what we are doing
there with a bunch of foreigners on a bus leaving Fallujah. Are we evacuating
wounded Americans? Are we spies? It is very tense for a few moments, but
luckily the bus is filled with locals, who explain indignantly to the gunmen
what is going on, and we are then free to go.
Our first stop in Baghdad is the Italian hospital, to drop off the most severe
injuries. An Italian friend meets us there and she greets me in her usual
fashion. "Fuck you bastard," she says, "I am worrying about you all the night."
Yeah, well, I was worrying about me all the night too.
